Thursday, July 5, 2012

I Fear Failure {Green Blogger Challenge}

my biggest fear kittenThis is the July 5th prompt for the Green Blogger Challenge: What is your biggest fear?

This is a tough one for me to decide. There are lots of silly little fears I have, like when I'm in bed and think too hard about scary movies I've seen...or have just heard about. Yeah, so I can't really watch scary movies anymore!

But something that really freaks me out in real life is failure. Part of my fear of failure is the fact that other people will think that I am stupid. Stupid for not being able to succeed, but also stupid for trying. Sometimes, this fear of failure can hold me back. For example, I've never really learned how to dive, because I'm afraid I'll only be doing belly-flops.

On the other hand, my fear of failure can also push me to finish things that I might feel like quitting. If I start something, I will finish it. (Crafts and cleaning excluded.) For example, I found out that my Baby E would be due in the middle of a semester at school. I didn't want to get behind a semester in my program, and so I pushed through the semester, giving birth at the end of spring break. Sure, I could not wait for that semester to end so that I could enjoy my baby, but I made it through! I do have to mention that my advisors were amazing in their support to help me make this work. I couldn't have done it without them!

Hopefully I can transition from letting my fear of failure stopping my from trying new things. There are also situations where "quitting" is really a noble choice, and I should try to recognize those times.
I'd love to hear your thoughts or experiences on how to work with this fear!

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